Forever

A permanent commitment is a very serious one. I need to trust that if you are making such a commitment, that you will be doing everything in your power to ensure that I will never again be a free man. I would hope that, should you become unwilling or unable to keep me as your slave in the future, that you would attempt to make other arrangements to ensure that I remain the property of a suitable master for the rest of my life.

A permanent arrangement assumes that I will become your property for the rest of my life, in other words, forever. I can only make that sort of commitment if I am sure that all reasonable efforts are made to ensure that it forever truly means forever.

While it’s a lot to read, there’s a story on this site which has inspired me. It’s about a guy becoming a permanent slave, and you can tell that from day one, he knew that his commitment truly was forever, that he would never escape.

For me to feel like I’ve become a permanent slave to you, I would like you to take all reasonable steps to ensure that if something is meant to be permanent, that it feels permanent. An example is the collar that you lock on me at the beginning of our commitment.

It’s my dream to have a collar permanently attached to my neck. There’s a company that makes a permanent collar, but it’s also possible to rivet, weld, solder, or even use a bit of JB Weld to close most collars permanently.

The Only Requirement To Make Me Your Slave Forever

While I’m laying out on these pages some of the things I HOPE will happen, there is only one requirement that I have (other than what appears on the limits page). If you desire to make me your slave for the rest of your life, you will ensure that the collar placed around my neck is permanently attached. While we might not start with a metal collar on day one, we can make it a top priority to obtain one.

With most non permanent collars, you could simply cut the lock to remove it, if it’s permanently attached, it can’t be removed, not by me and not by anyone else.  It’s there forever. Because it’s permanently attached, my mental need to feel that it is there forever is satisfied because it truly is.

My Fears

My biggest fear in this whole thing is that at some point in the future, a situation will occur in which you are unable to keep me as your slave, and I will be sent out into the world with no resources, or worse yet, starve to death because you died in a car accident or something.

That is not to say that I fear dying in this situation. If I agree to give you complete control for the rest of my life, that assumes that at some point (hopefully many many years from now) I will eventually die.  With the example of the collar above, I know that if it is permanently attached, that I will die wearing it. Without trying to sound morbid, I look forward to that day, as it tells me I truly gave my entire life to you.

I realize that I could potentially live another 50+ years, and that that is a big commitment to make. I would ask that shortly after you have taken permanent control of my life that you begin to make some contingency plans in case of emergencies.

From the moment the collar is attached to my neck  I am literally and figuratively handing over control of my life. I ask that, if some day in the future, perhaps 10 years from now, you find yourself in a situation where you need to end our relationship, that you make every reasonable effort to sell or give me to another suitable master.

Some things I would hope become permanent

While I only truly ask that my collar become a permanent attachment to my body, there are a few other things that you may consider doing at some point in the  future. Again, these things are optional, but are things I would truly like you to consider.

Another story which has inspired me greatly is the story where the main character becomes a human urinal and is locked into that role for the rest of his life. While it may be unfeasible for the actual act of being a urinal to be a 24/7/365 arrangement due to health issues, There is no reason that, like the main character, the doors on the cage are closed forever.  The cage doors could be sealed in much the same way that the collar would be sealed around my neck. If the doors were welded closed, I would know that I was locked inside forever. With the appropriate cage, there should be no issues.

The final issue is one which MAY be a bad idea, perhaps better left in fantasy, but it’s something I’ve fantasized about for well over 25 years.  When you make the decision to make my slavery permanent, with no possible means of escape, I would like you to consider forever taking away my ability to cum at the same time. This can be accomplished by permanently attaching a chastity belt in a way it can never be removed, or through simple castration (I have the tools required).  The first keeps me horny for the rest of my life, the second removes my sex drive. You may have other reasons for NOT fulfilling this request, but forever taking away my ability to come gives you complete control over me physically and mentally.

Turning Fantasy Into Reality

Note: At this stage, this post is purely fantasy, based on an arrangement that almost was…
After actively searching for over 5 years, I believe that I may have found the right person, and if all goes as planned, I will become his full time slave within a few weeks. It’s been a struggle weeding through those who were only seeking short term unrealistic situations, as well as finding someone with whom I could find a mutual trust and respect. I’ll begin by describing our arrangement, and toward the end of this post, I’ll attempt to explain why certain decisions were reached in the hope that others will benefit from my experiences. First and foremost, we understood that there is a major difference between fantasy and reality, but we needed to arrange a situation where both the fantasy aspects and the reality of life could live in the same space. The first day that I arrive to become his slave will be the day where the most fantasy elements come into play. He has agreed to make this first day fit as closely as possible to my fantasies, because from that day forward, I will have given up all choices, and my life will be entirely within his hands. I must trust that he will respect my limits. The day will actually begin the night before, when I will check into a local hotel for my last night as a free man.  I will have all the gear and supplies ready for his arrival in the morning. When morning arrives, the process of transforming me into a slave will begin. He is bringing a van, and an assistant, for reasons which will become obvious soon. Upon his arrival, our first order of business will be to create a video. I will explain in this video that I am entering into this arrangement of my own free will, and explain the basics of what will happen, along with making it clear that I am giving complete control to my new master. This is intended to protect him should the need arise in the future. The rest of the mornings events will also be filmed, for possible use at a future date. After removing my street clothing and changing into a latex catsuit, steel cuffs will be secured around my neck, ankles, and wrists.  This has a functional purpose in that it will always provide my master a quick and convenient anchor point for my arms and legs, as well as a convenient place to secure a leash at any point. The intent is to begin with the leg cuffs, and after the screw that doubles as a lock is secured, we will use a soldering gun to cover the hole where the screw is located, which will have the effect of making it impossible to remove the cuffs without major effort (I have attempted to cut these with a hacksaw, and it is virtually impossible). Once soldered on, even if I got cold feet, I would have no choice but to wear these cuffs for the rest of my life. Next my wrists will be cuffed, and again, welded shut with the soldering gun. Finally, a steel collar would be placed around my neck, and welded closed. At this point, I will have no choice but to continue my transformation, as even if I chose to walk away at this point, I would be collared and cuffed forever. We will then leave the hotel, which will be prepaid for at least one more night, making sure to leave my cell phone behind in the room. It will be impossible to trace my phone to his location via GPS (should anyone attempt), and equally important, I will be leaving all of the information for my contacts behind. I am agreeing to enter into this arrangement as a lifetime slave, and part of that for me includes that no one I know should be able to locate me and attempt to “rescue me”. Whether I find that this arrangement works for me, or I discover that I am unhappy, I will have no choice to terminate the situation. Once we complete the next stage of my transformation, it will be impossible for me to escape. After the collar and cuffs are welded on, it will be time for me to enter the cage that we are having custom designed for our needs (the time and funds it takes to have this custom made are the primary reason that it will take us a few weeks to begin). For this, we will travel in his van for a few blocks to pick up the cage at the store which is building it for us. We will place the cage into the back of his van, and I will enter the 4x4x6 cage (giving me enough room to sit up, lie down, and stretch my arms and legs outside the cage if necessary). Once inside, the door will be closed, locked, and “welded” closed with JB Weld. It will take a few moments, but once the JB Weld cures, there will be no way to open the door, and I will be sealed inside the cage, with no way to escape, and no way for anyone to let me out. The biggest part of my personal fantasy was that my bondage be permanent and inescapable, welding the door closed ensures that I will remain inside the cage for the rest of my life. The lock will also be sealed with JB Weld, and the keys to the lock will be tossed into the closest sewage drain grate, leaving no way to open the lock. The trip to his house will then begin, and once we have arrived, him and his assistant will move the cage (with me inside) into his basement, where I will spend the remainder of my life as a urinal slave to him and the rest of his slaves (he has several) The last major components of the first day will include locking a funnel gag on my head (as my primary job as a slave will be to serve as a urinal for my master, his friends, and the other slaves he owns) and fulfilling the longest running fantasy I can remember.  Immediately after the cage door is welded closed, I will be restrained, and castration bands will be placed around my testicles.  From that point, I will spend many hours in pain as the blood circulation is cut off from my testicles, and at such point as they are ready, my balls will be cut off. From that moment onward, there are no specific plans, but everything will be in place for me to spend the rest of my life as the household toilet.  From that moment on, “Toilet” is the only name I will ever know again. His other slaves will ensure that I am fed, and that whatever personal needs I have, including removal of my personal waste and cleanliness are handled, but only so much as necessary to ensure health and safety are maintained. It is understood by all involved that, because I will remain in the cage for the rest of my life, that there is the realistic situation that, at some point, I will die inside that cage. No one involved has any sort of desire for this inevitable end of life to come soon, so proper health and safety arrangements must be made so that, with any luck, that we can enjoy this arrangement for at least the next 30-50 years. Throughout this process, I had what some people considered unrealistic expectations, most importantly being that should something happen where my master was unwilling or unable to continue to keep me as a slave (such as him becoming incapacitated in a car accident) that there was a plan for me to at least be safe, but hopefully continue my slavery with another person that he trusts. Those arrangements have been made, and there are back up plans should those fall through, so, I can feel confident that when I wrap up my current life (job, apartment, etc) that I am doing so with the reasonable expectation that once I enter the cage, and the door is welded closed behind me, that I do not need to fear a situation where my master becomes incapacitated and I end up starving to death. I feel very confident I’m making the right decision, after literally screening thousands of interested people.  I still have two major fears however… First, I am afraid of getting cold feet.  I am 100% certain that this is what I want, and that I will be happy with the end result, it’s a big change from my current “normal” life of having a job and making my own decisions. Part of the reason I’m posting this online is taking ownership of that fear, with the hope that if needed, others can reassure me that it will be OK Second, I know that, once inside the cage, that, as mentioned above, it will be a major change. Again, I know that this is the right thing, but it will take time for me to change my thinking and state of mind.  I’m a bit scared of going through that process, but I know that I will make it through, and not just because I won’t have a choice. I’m excited and nervous about entering this next stage in my life, and I can only hope it will be as rewarding as I think it will be. I had always hoped that I could find a permanent piss slave existence, and I believe that having a collar and cuffs welded on so I can be restrained, as well as being welded inside a cage so it is impossible to open from the inside or the outside is the best way to ensure that I will truly be able to fulfill my fantasy of becoming a sex slave for life.

Originally posted on https://statdig.com

Why Forever?

One of the biggest things that people ask my about is my “fascination” with life long, inescapable slavery. There’s a fine line between reality and fantasy, and sometimes, taking things literally can be a mistake as well.  I’m ultimately seeking a master who can abide by the “spirit” of what I’m seeking, as well as a master who’s one needs might be fulfilled by fulfilling some of the needs I have. It’s tough to understand why i would want, or even consider a situation where I was locked into a cage for the rest of my life, or similar situations. It’s a good question, and I wanted to take time to (try) to explain this. I look forward to reading the comments I get on the subject. There are several  factors contributing to this desire, and it’s tough to pick what is the most important, so I’m listing there here in no particular order.

  1. Fulfilling The Fantasy. This one has a couple different angles. Primary on being that I’ve always wanted to know how it would “feel” to be chained away forever. The longest continuous stretch of bondage I’ve ever done was a two week stretch. It’s logical to try longer periods of time, but let’s use the example of a month’s commitment.  Afterwards, I would understand how it felt to be locked up for a month.  No matter what period of time I serve as slave, the only REAL way to know how that “feels” is to actually do it. Admittedly, on it’s surface, this one is a bit “silly” but there;s truth there as well.
  2. It’s about totally committing to serve my master. Inherent in any “temporary” commitment (day, week, month, year, ten years, etc) is an undeniable fact.  At some point, I will be “set free” and will return to my current life. It will be essentially impossible for at least a part of me to avoid thoughts of that moment. What will I do to support myself? What arrangements do I need to make today to ensure my “return to society” is successful, etc.
  3. I’m a bit “selfish”. A bad summary I admit.  I’m not actually selfish, but what I’m trying to say here is that I’m making a huge commitment to my potential future master by agreeing to give up my current life and life in his service. During this time, I am willing and able to contribute whatever is required, whether that be financially, sexually, or simply “earning my keep”. In doing this, I’m (willingly) putting myself, my resources, and my future “on the table”, and offing those to the one I will be serving. Those things come at a price, however, and although I’m more than willing to negotiate that price, my starting point is that a master would ensure that I would serve him for the rest of my life.
  4. It’s all about giving up control. One thing I know for certain, no matter what arrangement I make with a potential master.  There are going to be times and situations in which I will be required to participate in activities which I might not necessarily enjoy, or situations where I am pushed a bit beyond my current comfort zone. The way I see it, any thing short of total, lifetime commitment puts at least some of that “control” back in my hands. At that point, it becomes a “slippery slope”. If I am allowed to determine how long I will serve, it’s not that big a leap to expect  that I could determine other things. Ultimately, these types of things would undermine the entire “point” of the arrangement in the first place.

Finally, it is important to point out that when the right master comes along, he and I will of course take the time to figure out how to ensure that all party’s needs are met. Some of the things I lay out on this blog are not always meant in a literal sense, and the understanding of making things “safe, sane, and consensual” should always be most important. I have no intention of entering an unsafe situation which would place either myself or a potential master in harms way. I hope I’ve made things clear, but am always willing to answer any questions you might have. i look forward to hearing from those reading this, and it’s only through discussion that we can truly understand each other.

Seeking A Slave?

Are You Seeking A Slave?

My primary goal is to fill my desire (fill the need in my life) to become a full time slave.

While my ultimate hope is to find a permanent home, I also understand that for some potential masters, a lifetime commitment is unpractical. I would rather, therefore be allowed to experience slavery and service in smaller doses if necessary, rather than never experience it at all because I limited my options to a permanent arrangement.

I am open to consider many options, which not only helps me fill my needs, but may help a potential master to fulfill their needs as well.

While I have very few limits, I also have a few needs to fill to make this a rewarding experience. I know that a potential master will have needs of his own, and hope we are able to work together to meet the needs of everyone involved.

Safety

First and foremost, my primary need is safety. I will not knowingly enter a situation where I feel I could be put at risk.

The Choice To Not Have A Choice

Secondly, and just as important, I have a need to experience some form of physical restraint 100% of the time I serve as a slave. This need not always be fancy, it could be something as simple as locking one end of a chain around a post, and attaching the other end to some part of my body. Even if that chain is hundreds of feet long, it physically prevents me from leaving, and that is the important part.

For me, the choice to enter a slavery arrangement is ultimately a choice to no longer have a choice. Being physically prevented from walking away simply reinforces that.

Fulfilling Obligations

Before I agree to become slave to anyone, one very important aspect we must consider is the amount of time that that commitment will require. I fully expect that under no circumstances should I be permitted to cut my commitment short. I would ask the same of any potential master seeking to own me as well. It is better to agree to a shorter time period that we are sure we both can commit to than to cut a commitment short. There are always exceptions for unforeseen circumstances, but integrity involves honoring your commitments.

 

Agreeing On Forever

Some masters will know from the beginning that they are seeking a slave to serve them for the rest of their life. I would happily consider entering into an arrangement which I knew would last for a lifetime from day one. Any arrangement involving lifetime service must include as many elements as possible which reinforce that commitment. At a minimum, I ask that any lifetime commitment be accompanied by master making sure that the collar locked around my neck be attached permanently.

 

Some Things I Hope To Achieve

While I only truly ask that my ollar become a permanent attachment to my body, there are a few other things that you may consider doing at some point in the  future. Again, these things are optional, but are things I would truly like you to consider.

Losing Track of Time

One of the things I’m looking forward to most I think can only happen once I’m sure that you have taken control of me in a manner in which I know I will never have any hope of escape is that I will at some point stop worrying about time. Since I’ll know that I will be tied up in some fashion for the rest of my life, I will eventually not worry about whether a particular scene will last 5 more minutes or 5 more days.  I should be able to enjoy the scene and not stress about trivial things like time.

Make Me A Piss Slave

One story which has inspired me greatly, perhaps more than any other, is the story where the main character becomes a human urinal and is locked into that role for the rest of his life.

While it may be unfeasible to perfectly recreate every bit of what happens in this story, I would really like to engage in the spirit of the story. If I could ask for one ongoing activity, it would be for you to make me into a urinal, just like the character in the story. This could become a nearly full time job for me, and ultimately you would hook up a recycling tube as well. As you added more water into my system, my bladder would fill up faster, and I believe ultimately that there would be an almost steady stream of piss being forced down my throat.  I would be constantly reminded of my status as toilet.

There may even be a market for you to rent out my services to local parties and bars, which would enable me to help with household finances.

Eventually, I’d need to take a break once in a while to bring in clean water to flush my system and I might not be capable of being a urinal as a 24/7/365 arrangement due to health issues, There is no reason that,just like with the main character, the doors on the cage could not be closed forever.  The cage doors could be sealed in much the same way that the collar would be sealed around my neck. If the doors were welded closed, I would know that I was locked inside forever. With the appropriate cage, there should be no issues. In the story, the guy forced to become a lifelong urinal discovered he didn’t like it, I’m sure that I’ll experience the same thing, but even knowing that going in, I still would love to do it. I’d rather be forced to do this for the rest of my life and hate it than not have the opportunity to try it at all.

“You Will Never Cum Again”

The final issue is one which MAY be a bad idea, perhaps better left in , but it’s something I’ve fantasized about for well over 25 years.  When you make the decision to make my slavery permanent, with no possible means of escape, I would like you to consider forever taking away my ability to cum at the same time. This can be accomplished by permanently attaching a chastity belt in a way it can never be removed, or through simple castration (I have the tools required).  The first keeps me horny for the rest of my life, the second removes my sex drive. You may have other reasons for NOT fulfilling this request, but forever taking away my ability to come gives you complete control over me physically and mentally.